remember surrender

"oh, remember surrender, remember the rest? remember that weight lifting off of your chest and realizing that it is not up to you, and it never was? remember surrender, remember relief? remember how tears rolled down both of your cheeks as the warmth of your heavenly father came closing in? i want to do that again. why can't i live there and make my home? in sweet surrender i want to do so much, more than remember. remember the peace, remember how you fell fast asleep in the face of your troubles, your future still shown like the morning sun?"

i want to feel it once more.

i want those tears to come streaming down my face one more time. 

i want to do that again.

lord, 

it is not up to me.

and it never will be.

lead me back into that place of submission.