finding the balance between what is healthy and was isn't can be so tough. recently i have been trying with all my might to realize where i draw that line so that i may function as an emotionally healthy being but it seems with each day it gets harder. growing up in a christian home and school has really effected my idea of what it means to be selfless. as i have grown up, i have realized that being selfless doesn't mean constantly putting oneself in danger of losing oneself. i am currently trying to find where that line needs to be drawn, and how to let those 'friends' down easily. i truly do love those people, but i also love myself so it might be time to 'step away'.
we are currently reading a play in studies in literature. the play is a doll's house by james mcfarlane. the leading character, nora is in pursuit of finding herself and what role she plays in society. below she is speaking to her husband about how she is going to leave him and he responds:
torvald: you are betraying your most sacred duty.
nora: and what do you consider to be my most sacred duty?
torvald: does it take me to tell you that?
isn't your duty to your husband and children?
nora: i have another duty equally sacred.
torvald: you have not. what duty might that be?
nora: my duty to myself...i believe that first
and foremost i am an individual, just as much as you
are - or at least i am going to try and be...
i am not content any more with what most people
say. i have to think things out for myself, and get things clear.
that is where i am at. that is the very crossroad at which i stand.
who is more important?
to whom do i owe more devotion and love?
can they be equally divided?
only time will tell.
.i am going to need someone to break my fall.
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His name is Jesus......
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