the bumble

i just wanted to say that i love wearing my bumble.

best coat i have ever owned.

okay, so we have a problem.

i am in a really uncomfortable, unhealthy place. before i lost all this weight, i was semi-unhappy about my weight. but it seems that now that i have lost this weight i am in a even deeper place of unhappiness. i want to lose more, and more, and more. 

and i guess even though intellectually

i know that the problem lies deeper than my

outward appearance, i can't seem to convince myself

that even if i do lose more i won't be happy until

i fix the inside.

i just feel so ungrateful, 

and disappointed in myself

for not being able to be content. 

i wish that what i have already accomplished

would be enough, but it doesn't seem to be.

i leave you with the fact that

life is complicated.

love to you,

bumble b.