miss piggy.

home again, home again, jiggity jig.

all-nighter.

oh my goodness, it is 7:24 am.

i should be asleep, but unfortunately i am still awake.

i have not slept since 1:30 pm yesterday. it has been a long

18 hours of reading, writing, and discussing.

i seriously think i might keel over. 

i have been working on this paper for dialogue for over a week, 

every two days changing my topic and starting fresh. three days 

ago was the last time though, maybe over three days but i am not

sure seeing as my brain wants to quit on me.

as i have been working on this paper, i have gotten to a place of

frustration because i feel as though i am working my butt off

and yet nothing is coming out of it. plus,  i keep thinking about

everything i have to do for other classes, and how i have to pack 

and clean and all that great stuff that has to get done in order to

really be "free".

so as i was stressing about it, i was reminded of a verse.

and i want to share it with you because i am in a place of

having to fully depend on it in order to get through this

last day and a half. my energy, strength and ability to think 

are all gone, but i know someone whose aren't.

he said to me, 

"i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."

then he went ahead and added:

"be anxious for nothing, but in everything

by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving, make your

requests known to God. and the peace of God, which passes

all understanding will guard your hearts and your minds

in Jesus Christ."

praise the Lord.  

never ending

"you are wonderful, a friend to the weary.

you have been so faithful, your goodness, it follows me.

you are beautiful, your love is never ending.

my savior, my friend- all these years, we've been walking..."

isn't it true?

joel 2:12-14

"even now," declares the Lord, "return to me with all your heart, with fasting and weeping and mourning." rend your heart and not your garments. return to the Lord your God, for he is gracious and compassionate, slow to anger and abounding in love, and he relents from sending calamity. who knows? he may turn and have pity and leave us behind a blessing..."

yesterday, i opened my bible and was headed to psalms, 

but ran into joel and these verses caught my eye. 

then right after reading joel 2, i headed onto psalm 4.

 look at what it said...

"answer me when i call to you,

oh my righteous God.

Give me relief from my distress;

be merciful to me and hear my prayer."

v. 1

i think the Lord was trying to say something.

love, 

the bumble b.  

the bumble

i just wanted to say that i love wearing my bumble.

best coat i have ever owned.

okay, so we have a problem.

i am in a really uncomfortable, unhealthy place. before i lost all this weight, i was semi-unhappy about my weight. but it seems that now that i have lost this weight i am in a even deeper place of unhappiness. i want to lose more, and more, and more. 

and i guess even though intellectually

i know that the problem lies deeper than my

outward appearance, i can't seem to convince myself

that even if i do lose more i won't be happy until

i fix the inside.

i just feel so ungrateful, 

and disappointed in myself

for not being able to be content. 

i wish that what i have already accomplished

would be enough, but it doesn't seem to be.

i leave you with the fact that

life is complicated.

love to you,

bumble b.  

good news!

i had an interview for a desk attendant position today, and Catherine told me that she thinks that i would be perfect. she said that both her and the head of the dorms were very impressed with my application. they said that the way that i typed everything up was fantastic! she said i was personable, a leader, and had a good head on my shoulders. then she went as far as to tell me to apply to be an RA because she thinks i would be a fantastic. so i am going to the meeting come thursday evening, and feel as though i have the desk attendant position for sure. exciting, huh?

being an RA would pay for my housing next year, isn't that great?

snowing....

let it snow. let it snow. let it snow.

love.

courage to fight.

courage to dream.

courage to live.

those are all the things

you have given me.

and i thank you.

"no, you can't have ice cream. eat this..."

today, when i went through the salad bar i was seriously disturbed.

my favorite eat was gone, missing, no where to be found!

i have recently decided that hummus is the yummiest thing in the ara, 

due to that revelation it is currently my main dish at every meal.

so imagine my shock and sadness, 

when i walk up to the salad bar to get my

hummus and feta cheese and there are none to

found!

i quickly scanned the rest of the metal tubs for 

something that might bring me just a tad bit of 

the satisfaction my hummus and feta bring me.

and then i saw it.

the white, curdled chunks brought

back memories.

memories of both childhood,

and also my surprise trip to kc.

i started laughing as i spooned the cottage

cheese onto my plate, and as i neared the table

i could tell i had a lot of explaining to do.

all of this to say sisters,

i thought of you today as i

ate my childhood diet.

miss you.

love you.

♥

"watch you spin around in your highest heels, you are the best one of the best ones."

if you need to find me, you will have to find

a really big ladder and bolt it to the ground 

because i am sitting on top of the world.

i don't plan on coming down anytime soon.

new jeans please!

just because i can...

i own three pair of jeans that while buttoned,

i can take off.

three pairs that are too big!

you have no idea how good this feels,

my hall mates do though.

i couldn't keep from screaming.

so exciting!

thanksgiving...

couldn't come sooner.

i need a break, seriously. 

somebody buy me a belt and some suspenders,

these jeans won't stay up!

stolen

this city along with a new endeavor,

have stolen my heart.

"you have stolen my heart.

you have stolen my heart.

watch you spin around in your highest heels.

you are the best one, of the best ones.

we

all

look

like

we

feel.

you have stolen my heart.

you have stolen my heart."

 

life.

"just because i'm losing, doesn't mean i'm lost.

doesn't mean i'll stop, doesn't mean i will cross.

just because i'm hurting, doesn't mean i'm hurt.

doesn't mean i didn't get what i deserved,

no better and no worse.

i just got lost,

every river that i tried to cross.

every door that i tried was locked,

oh and i'm just waiting till the shine wears off.

you might be a big fish in a little pond,

but that doesn't mean you've won.

cause along may come, a bigger one.

and you'll be lost,

every river that you've tried to cross.

every gun that you've ever held went off.

oh and i'm just waiting till the firing stopped.

oh and i'm just waiting till the shine wears off.

just waiting till the shine wears off...."

truth

"i think i'd miss you, even if we'd never met."

free

"return"

i need to return to him.

i need to come back to what i know of my God.

tomorrow i give a devotion in youth ministry.

"and that is where the problem lies;

 it lies in the fact that we can't forgive ourselves. 

we hold onto our past so we do not have to move into

the future."

i am going to speak on the fact that we make decisions that

may not have been the wisest or healthiest decisions 

(whether pertaining to mentally, physically, emotionally,

or spiritually) but the point is we made it. it is over, we can't

go back and change it. we can't alter it. we need to accept it,

if needed take time to grieve about it and then make a brand

new decision - that being whether we want to stay where

we are or if we want to move on, evolve. But if we don't choose 

to move on, our lives will degenerate into broken hearts 

conveying skewed views that propel the making of poor 

decisions. 

we are scared of grieving mainly because

that opens up doors and breaks down 

walls we are not comfortable without. 

they protect us, or at least we think so.

but the truth is, in order for us to heal

we need to grieve over it, talk about it, 

and let people in. But how can people 

come in when all our doors are bolted

and our walls higher than any ladder can reach?

the reasons given for the bolted doors

and very high walls lie solely in the fact that

we have been hurt. paralyzed us in fear of getting

hurt, again, believing in ourselves, feeling and dreaming big.

but these "paralyzers" can be only temporary,

if we choose. but that is just the thing, we have

to make that decision. they have the ability to be in the

driver seat of our lives, if we let them.

but let us be careful as we grieve our past, 

that we do not turn grieving into condemning.

Jesus made it clear in Romans that we are 

now free from that.

"Therefore, there is now no condemnation

for those who are in Christ Jesus,

the law of the Spirit of life set me free

from the law of sin and death." 

chapter 8, verse 1

therefore if we choose Christ,

then we are free from it.

we are no longer slaves to 

this earth therefore freeing us

from the condemnation for our sins.

and then i will go on and on about how

to start the renewal process, and in what 

ways we can reclaim our life but i am 

going to leave them with this. something

i need, something we all need. something 

that has motivated me and i find when i look

to my own christian walk.

"the tragedy is that that same persons who have the deepest

capacity for worship are sometimes those who feel the least

right to worship. i am convinced the greatest cause of a believer's

inability to offer fragrant worship is a feeling of worthlessness,

whether self or environmentally imposed. please realize your past

sins may forfeit respect or position; but after you have truly repented,

past sins cannot annul your right to the deepest invitations of the 

christian experience: to know God and to worship him. if your 

feelings of worthlessness have been environmentally imposed, 

you have only one solution: allow God to lavish his love on you.

lavish worship comes from lavish love. if you receive god's 

love, you can then return it. many believers can accept

christ's gift of salvation but not the love that enabled it."

beth moore

pray that the lord's words are spoken.

i am praying for you.

love.

 

answer

"i will be the answer at the end of the line, i will be there for you while you take your time. in the burning of uncertainty i will be your solid ground, i will hold the balance when you can't look down. if it takes my whole life i won't break, i won't bend. it will all be worth it, worth it in the end. cause i can only tell you what i know, that i need you in my life because when all the stars go out you will still be burning so bright. cast me gently into morning for the night has been unkind. take me to a place so holy, that i can wash this from my mind. memory choosing not to fight. if it takes my whole life i won't break, i won't bend. it will all be worth it in the end. cause i can only tell you what i know, that i need you in my life. that when all the stars burn out, you will still be burning so bright. cast me gently into morning, for the night has been unkind. "

when i listen to these two songs,

all i can think about are my two older sisters.

they have been that answer.

thank you.

i just wanted to say that i hate the way that magnuson campus center smells.

imagine mildew mixed with disgusting food.

delicious. 

proverbs 4:20-27

"My son, pay attention to what I say; listen closely to my words. Do not let them out of your sight, keep them written on your heart; for they are life to those who find them and health to a man's whole body. Above all else, guard your heart; for it is the wellspring of life. Put away perversity from your mouth; keep corrupt talk far from your lips. Let your eyes look straight ahead, fix your gaze directly before you. Make level paths for your feet and take only the ways that are firm.  Do not swerve to the right or the left; keep your foot from evil."

What gets me about this verse is not only the

incredible portrayal of a life being lived for Christ,

but also the promise of two things. The word of God is 

"life to those who find them, and health to a man's whole body."

I believe that the Lord means this in all forms possible.

Not only physically, but also mentally, emotionally and spiritually.

The words of the Lord, bring healing.

What a compelling and exhilarating thought that is. 

Not only should we be challenged to bask in the word of Lord 

so much more, but we should also be challenged to live 

a life for Christ just like the one He described in this passage.

Let us challenge one another in these things, 

so that we may not only grow in Christ but also closer

together as a community of believers.

birthday queens

happy belated birthday to heather & happy birthday to laura.

i love you both!

prayer

pray.

seriously.

it feels like i have been sick for over a week and i am tired of it.

i need healing. 

i have got nothing new for you all, besides the fact that the Lord is incredible.

his faithfulness amazes me.

his grace saves me.

his forgiveness redeems me.

his love inspires me.

he is everything i need.

dancing at discos

"dancing at discos, 

    eating cheese on toast, 

   yeah you make me merry, 

         you make me very very happy, 

but you obviously didn't want to stick around.

i can be alone, i can watch the sunset on my own. 

yeah, i can be alone."

city.

"i like it in the city when the air is so thick and opaque.

  i like it in the city when two worlds collide. 

  you get the people and the government, everybody taking different sides." 

missing you.

i had missed you, and just because i came home doesn't mean it has gone away.

come to chicago.

i need you.

the cry of my heart...

"i come into this place, burning to receive your peace. i come with my own chains, for wars i fought for my own selfish gain. You're my God and my Father, i've accepted your Son. but my soul feels so empty now, what have i become? Lord, come with your fire, burn my desires, refine me. Lord, my will has deceived me, please come and free me, refine me.  my heart can't see when i only look at me. my soul can't hear, when i only think of my own fears. and they are gone in a moment, your forever the same. why did i look away from you, how can i speak your name? Lord, come with your fire, burn my desires, refine me. Lord my will has deceived me, come and free me, refine me. come rescue this child, for i long to be reconciled to You. it's all i can do, to give my heart and soul to you and pray. refine me. " 

jennifer knapp/refine me

loved one.

meet dusabemariya victoire.

my new adopted daughter.

dusabemariya is ten years old and lives in Rwanda, in the community of Gisanga. she is in first grade and her favorite subject is reading. dusambemariya lives with her parents, and five sisters. dusambemariya's chore is carrying water. 

carrying water take hours each day. they are to retrieve the water in jerry cans from shallow wells, consequently because of that they suffer from worms, hygience problems, missing school and the time to pursue other business. malaria is an epidemic in this area not only because of the unclean water, but also because of rampant malnutrition. the health center in Gisanga lacks the facilities to treat the children who have malaria and or anemia. at school there are no sanitary facilities, school desks, drinking water or even enough classrooms to accommodate all the children.

isn't she lovely?

if you guys think of me, please pray for dusabemariya.

she means a lot to me, and really needs someone on her behalf.

there is nothing better than to know you are blessing someone.

especially someone so precious!

hanging on by a thread

so often our heads and hearts don't agree.

we believe one thing in our heads, but our hearts are so far from that same conclusion.

as i was typing today on my computer, this song came on and for some reason it hit me.

and this is why...

i can tell you of all the promises of God and believe them in my heart,

until they apply directly to me.

it's time for a renewal of these ideas, truths and promises.

it's time for the Lord to renew my spirit and belief.

the following song is by jill phillips.

hanging on by a thread

i can't help but feel like there's something missing.

i hear the same old truth, this time its not convincing.

all the promises are hard to swallow when...

i'm hanging on by a thread,

i still believe every word you said.

but i can't get it down to my heart from my head.

i remember the story of someone who needed

help with his own belief even when he believed it.

but you didn't come to heal the ones who never feel.

we're hanging on by a thread,

we still believe every word you said.

but we can't get it down to our hearts from our heads.

i need you to make a connection, make a connection please.

it's foolishness to hide, because you must know...

i am hanging on by a thread.

i still believe every word you said.

but i can't get it down to my heart from my head.

i dare you to download her cd.

it is free on noisetrade.com.

it will convict you. 

whoever said that was a bad thing....

 

don't let your love grow cold

"take all your love with you in all the paths you walk in.

  i can't say your life will always go the way it should, 

  but i can say that God is always good. 

and when the cold wind blows, which i know it will.

and when you feel alone, which i know you will.

and when the cold wind blows like we know it will.

don't let your love grow cold. 

don't let your love grow cold. 

don't let your love grow cold."

he is always good, always. 

God is good all the time,

and all the time God is good!

decisons

"hello Lord, it's me your child. i have a few things on my mind. right now i am faced with big decisions, and i am wondering if you have a minute. right now i don't hear so well and i was wondering if you could speak up. i know that you tore the veil so that i could sit with you in person and hear what you're saying - but right now, i just can't hear you. i don't doubt your sovereignty, i doubt my own ability to hear what you're saying and to do the right thing, and i desperately want to do the right thing. somewhere in the back of my mind, i think you are telling me to wait, and though patience has never been mine, Lord, i will wait to hear from you."

honesty

"here in the stillness, where thoughts are born. here in our frailty we are tattered and torn.

    here in confession, here in our mess, here in the place where we are mostly undressed - mostly.

       oh honesty, oh honestly - the truth be told for the saving of our souls. 

          here in the corner, where we craft our pain. here in the open we are laying our blame.

             oh honesty, oh honestly - the truth be told for the saving of our souls.

               only the truth and truthfulness can save us now...."

this is so hard.

pray.

breakthrough

"and they didn't love God because He hated their food, but WE love God."

 chloe, 6 

take note:

"God does not call the equipped, He equips the called."

dreams

it is so wonderful to see the dreams he gave my sweet sisters.

i am so inspired and excited to get involved.

what a blessing they are.

my wheels are spinning, be afraid, be very very afraid...

love146

www.love146.org

i am starting a chapter on campus.

i am getting fundraisers going.

i am going to hold an art night.

i am going to do my part.

stand up for those who are too weak.

speak up for those who don't have a voice.

something has got to change...

"i saw what i saw, and i can't forget it."

"i saw what i saw, and i can't forget it.

i heard what i heard and i can't go back.

i know what i know and i can't deny it.

something on the road, cut me to the soul.

your pain has changed me,

your dream inspires,

your face a memory,

your hope a fire.

your courage asks me what i am afraid of

and what i know of love.

we've done what we've done and we can't erase it.

we are what we are and it's more than enough.

we have what we have, but it's no substitution.

something on the road touched my very soul.

i say what i say with no hesitation.

i have what i have and i am giving it up.

i do what i do with deep conviction.

something on the road, changed my world."

sara groves / "i saw what i saw" / tell me what you know

i have no words to describe last night.

it broke me to the core.

it was everything i have been speaking about.

how the Lord was preparing me for something.

how He is here and He is getting ready to move. 

i went with selfish intentions of being blessed by sara,

but quickly found myself so overtaken.

the artists sang of hope. renewal. redemption. callings. brokenness. fear. newness.

and i could identify with every single one.

i wish that somehow i could go back, and relive that night because it

was such a healing process in which I saw my Father.

as i have grown in the Lord, my heart has become more tender,

as i was shown that last night. i can usually hold my own when

they talk about poverty and such. but the Lord has done a good 

work in me. unexpectedly last night, i was full of sadness and tears.

i could not keep speak.

i could not breathe.

i was completely broken.

the stories from last night and everything that will be said concerning this concert

last night comes from the heart. 

i saw what i saw, is the perfect song to describe how i am feeling.

i hope you can understand the deepness of this conviction.

it is real.

i want to tell a story, it is about a girl named Elizabeth.

Elizabeth is a fifteen year old girl originally from the Philippines.

She attended a local church with her family and felt as though

God was calling her into the ministry. After looking into education

options, Elizabeth discovered that in order to afford the necessary 

schooling she would need to get a job. An older woman from Elizabeth's 

church convinced Elizabeth and her family to allow the older woman to 

take Elizabeth to one of the neighboring cities and help her find a job. 

Out of her parent's safety, Elizabeth was taken to a foreign country,

with a different language and sold to a sex trafficker. 

The sex trafficker took Elizabeth to a youth hostel and sold her for 

a high price. Elizabeth found herself surrounded by other prostitutes

telling her of her God's inability to save such a dirty human.

As she prayed at night on her knees, they would call out to her 

saying "Your God does not hear people like you." 

"He is far from this place, very very far."

 "Stop praying, it is not doing anything." 

But Elizabeth would continue to pray, and cry out to her 

Lord saying "All I ask is that you save me, Lord. Please, please save me!" 

After months and months of receiving cruel treatment Elizabeth 

was saved during a bust on the brothel house. As the leader of the 

investigation, a man walked through the brothel looking for anything

he could find that would assist the prosecutors.

As he walked into the girls room, he found Elizabeth's mattress. 

Above her mattress written in her own handwriting and own language was:

"The Lord is my light and my salvation -

 whom shall I fear?

The Lord is the stronghold of my life -

of whom shall I be afraid?"

Psalm 27:1

If Elizabeth is not afraid, then why are we?

Thats only one of the very many stories that was shared last night, and here is the thing guys.

There are over 26 million slaves in this world. 26 million.

i just believe i am called to something more.

this is not right, not right at all.

we are called in Isaiah 1:17 to:

"seek justice, encourage the oppressed.

Defend the cause of the fatherless,

plead the case of the widow."

i have to go.

i have to set these people free.

they are in bondage to so many chains,

and hardly anyone is trying to break them free.

i really feel like this is it.

"sell everything you have and give to the poor,

and you will have treasure in heave.

then come, and follow me."

Luke 18:22

that is exactly what i intend on doing.

i said i wanted a ministry for girls.

i said i wanted to set captives free and break the bondage.

i said i wanted girls to feel their worth, and be renewed.

i said all these things with the intent of fixing the US' girls - but i had it all wrong.

orphan girls in the philippines, who were previously sex slaves

were asked what they were afraid of and they answered:

• no one will want me.
• i will appear as "damaged goods"
• the dark
• touch
• people's eyes

those are the girls i need to be working for.

those are the girls who need to know of Jesus and the 

way He loves them.

someone has to speak up. someone has to stand in the gap.

"If anyone would come after me,

he must deny himself and take up his cross

and follow me."

Matthew 16:24

i have never wanted to go.

i am convicted.

i truly believe this is it.

 

i am wasting money, time and words.

i can't live like this anymore.

i know to most of you this sounds absurd,

and like a foolish decision, but i have to go.

i can't waste my life, i have only got one 

and i have got a story to tell.

"i want to add to the beauty. i want to tell a better story,

oh and shine with a light thats burning up inside.

and this is grace, an invitation to be beautiful."

sara groves / add to the beauty

i could not sleep last night.

i stayed up for sometime.

it haunts me, and i believe it will until 

i start making an effort in trying to fix it.

"The Spirit of the Sovereign Lord is one me,

because the Lord has anointed to preach good news to the poor.

He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted,

to proclaim freedom for the captives and release from darkness

for the prisoners, to proclaim the year of the Lord's favor

and the day of vengeance of our God, to comfort all who mourn,

and provide for those who grieve in Zion - to bestow 

on them a crown of glory

instead of ashes, the oil of gladness instead of mourning, 

and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair! 

They will be called oaks of righteousness,

a planting of the Lord for the display of his splendor."

Isaiah 61:1-3

consider getting down on your knees tonight before the Lord,

and pleading with Him on behalf of these

children for freedom to come their way.

help carry their burden, they can't do it on their own.

"Childhood runs across the meadow, taken in the night

and told that you'll be working in the city for awhile.

It's peering from the windows, its leaning in the doorway,

flickering like on a candle lying on the floor.

Say a prayer, say a prayer in the night.

Say a prayer, say a prayer in the night.

Childhood working with your papa, chained to your mom.

This is all your live for, debts that linger on.

Bearing all the glory, bearing all the weight.

Knowledge of such hardship, at such a tender age.

Say a prayer, say a prayer in the night.

Say a prayer, say a prayer in the night."

sara groves / "say a prayer"

for now, that is all i can say.

i have so much more going on in my head and heart.

princess zulu

below are the notes from chapel this morning.

we had an amazing woman of God come and speak.

her ministry is working on behalf of those with aids,

seeing as she, herself is an aids orphan.

i hope you can see the progression and

confirmation that the Lord showed me today.

He truly does speak.

Princess Zulu's words are in green.

My thoughts and prayers are in white. 

Anderson Chapel/September 17, 2008

"What are we doing here?

  Fill the streets out there. 

  Let us dance for you!

  Let us dance for you!"

we so easily miss what is in the moment because 

we are looking toward what is next! 

What else is there for me?

"For such a time as this..."

Lord,

Distract me! I want my eyes to be focused on you.

Like Isaac said, "Distract me from myself!"

I need my needs and desires to come second. 

I need my eyes to be focused.

What can we do?

Right now Lord - what do you want?

Show me - prepare me to go!

There are demonic forces that constantly ask

and beg us to bow down to them.

Esther 4:12

We are not in this place for no reason. 

If we are going to be relevant, or make a difference 

in this world - we have to be people of prayer. 

If you begin with prayer, you will be sustained.

Lord, make this about you, not me.

Draw me into your presence. Let me hear this,

feel this - know you are here. I desire you.

I desire to live for you and you alone. 

Prayer calls for a relationship, humbleness, a life sacrificed.

If we are going to be effective,

we need to feel other's pain.

We need to take on their burdens,

care for them. Help those who are

struggling. Look beyond our own needs.

Where is the church? Where are you?

We need to look beyond our own 

situations and circumstances. 

Are we broken by the injustices of this world?

Someone has to speak. The silence has to be broken.

Are you convinced you are the only one who can do it?

Are you the only one with those abilities?

Are you convinced this is your time?

Never underestimate what God has in store for you!

Pray without ceasing. Do things for your Father.

John 8:12

"I am the light of the world. 

Whoever follows me will never walk 

in darkness, but will have the light of life."

Let your light shine, in hopes to bring the Lord glory.

Know that life is not measured by the years you live,

but by what you do, who you live for.

Jesus seeks the final satisfaction of justice.

Can't you hear the people crying:

"Who will come and set us free?"

Isaiah 6:8

"Here I am, send me!" 

Let the things we do be for you.

Let us trust and not doubt.

Let us love with your love.

Let our dreams and visions live on.

Let us not be discouraged,

but rather be encouraged through our

trials because we know God is working!

Let us not stay silent.

Let justice come.

Lord, you are good!

Your love endures forever.

To you be the glory!

Please follow this link and watch this video.

It raises questions. It will move you.

www.youtube.com/watch?v=PVNOPTnro_0

The Lord is tugging at my heart.

I don't know what He is preparing me for,

or where He is going to send me - but I do

feel that the time is coming.

I trust Him, it is amazing the peace I have.

I can't explain it guys.

He is working.

He is moving in me, and on this campus.

I am so excited to see my Father work.

Things are about to change!

How awesome it is it that in the beginning

of chapel I prayed that the Lord would show me

and prepare me to go, and then later Princess Zulu 

pulls out Isaiah 6:8.  Things like this happen for a reason.

He is moving, He truly is!

Wow.

set the world on fire

"i want to set the world on fire, until it is burning bright for you. i am small, but you are big enough. i am weak, but you are strong enough to: take my dreams, come and give them wings. Lord, with you there is nothing i cannot do. i want to feed the hungry children, and reach across the farthest land, and tell the broken there is healing and mercy in the Father's hand. i am small, but you are big enough. i am weak, but you are strong enough to: take my dreams, come and give them wings. Lord, with you there is nothing i cannot do. my hands, my feet, my everything. my life, my love. Lord, use me. i want to set the world on fire. take my dreams, come and give them wings. Lord, with you there's nothing i cannot do. take my dreams, come and give them wings..."

this is true,

deep,

and a desire.

i want to set the world on fire.

i want us to burn bright for Him.

can you imagine this generation on fire for the Lord?

i want it so badly, and struggle to explain to you the depths at which it falls. 

but to see my peers living for the Lord, would astound me and bring me such joy!

young men as strong and fearless as David?

young women as confident as Esther?

both fully giving themselves as sacrifices to the King?

please pray for this.

pray for a revival in the hearts of God's children.

we desperately need it.

pray for me if you think of it.

i want to go to Virginia for a camp this summer 

that is under Summit ministries.

everything that is said above Summit ministries 

works on living out - what a perfect place for me to be!

the finances are not there for me at this point

but i do believe the Lord can and will provide

for me if this is His desire for me this summer.

i want to be in His will.

check out the website:

www.summit.org

laura, 

thanks for the suggestion.

you were right.

it is my hope for this world.

you my dear,

have blessed me!

prayer

this weekend has been absolutely crazy.

seriously? seriously.

all this to say that if you think about me, please pray.

don't pray about me, just talk to your father - he wants to hear from you.

just let it be reminder of someone loving you.

i am excited to go dig in.

"God is good all the time, and all the time God is good."

no school is cool

the north end of the chicago river has flooded over,

meaning our dorms are flooded, and the generators are down.

all that to say no school tomorrow.

here are some photos for you all - compliments of my friends' facebook.