birthday queens

happy belated birthday to heather & happy birthday to laura.

i love you both!

prayer

pray.

seriously.

it feels like i have been sick for over a week and i am tired of it.

i need healing. 

i have got nothing new for you all, besides the fact that the Lord is incredible.

his faithfulness amazes me.

his grace saves me.

his forgiveness redeems me.

his love inspires me.

he is everything i need.

dancing at discos

"dancing at discos, 

    eating cheese on toast, 

   yeah you make me merry, 

         you make me very very happy, 

but you obviously didn't want to stick around.

i can be alone, i can watch the sunset on my own. 

yeah, i can be alone."

city.

"i like it in the city when the air is so thick and opaque.

  i like it in the city when two worlds collide. 

  you get the people and the government, everybody taking different sides." 

missing you.

i had missed you, and just because i came home doesn't mean it has gone away.

come to chicago.

i need you.

the cry of my heart...

"i come into this place, burning to receive your peace. i come with my own chains, for wars i fought for my own selfish gain. You're my God and my Father, i've accepted your Son. but my soul feels so empty now, what have i become? Lord, come with your fire, burn my desires, refine me. Lord, my will has deceived me, please come and free me, refine me.  my heart can't see when i only look at me. my soul can't hear, when i only think of my own fears. and they are gone in a moment, your forever the same. why did i look away from you, how can i speak your name? Lord, come with your fire, burn my desires, refine me. Lord my will has deceived me, come and free me, refine me. come rescue this child, for i long to be reconciled to You. it's all i can do, to give my heart and soul to you and pray. refine me. " 

jennifer knapp/refine me

loved one.

meet dusabemariya victoire.

my new adopted daughter.

dusabemariya is ten years old and lives in Rwanda, in the community of Gisanga. she is in first grade and her favorite subject is reading. dusambemariya lives with her parents, and five sisters. dusambemariya's chore is carrying water. 

carrying water take hours each day. they are to retrieve the water in jerry cans from shallow wells, consequently because of that they suffer from worms, hygience problems, missing school and the time to pursue other business. malaria is an epidemic in this area not only because of the unclean water, but also because of rampant malnutrition. the health center in Gisanga lacks the facilities to treat the children who have malaria and or anemia. at school there are no sanitary facilities, school desks, drinking water or even enough classrooms to accommodate all the children.

isn't she lovely?

if you guys think of me, please pray for dusabemariya.

she means a lot to me, and really needs someone on her behalf.

there is nothing better than to know you are blessing someone.

especially someone so precious!

hanging on by a thread

so often our heads and hearts don't agree.

we believe one thing in our heads, but our hearts are so far from that same conclusion.

as i was typing today on my computer, this song came on and for some reason it hit me.

and this is why...

i can tell you of all the promises of God and believe them in my heart,

until they apply directly to me.

it's time for a renewal of these ideas, truths and promises.

it's time for the Lord to renew my spirit and belief.

the following song is by jill phillips.

hanging on by a thread

i can't help but feel like there's something missing.

i hear the same old truth, this time its not convincing.

all the promises are hard to swallow when...

i'm hanging on by a thread,

i still believe every word you said.

but i can't get it down to my heart from my head.

i remember the story of someone who needed

help with his own belief even when he believed it.

but you didn't come to heal the ones who never feel.

we're hanging on by a thread,

we still believe every word you said.

but we can't get it down to our hearts from our heads.

i need you to make a connection, make a connection please.

it's foolishness to hide, because you must know...

i am hanging on by a thread.

i still believe every word you said.

but i can't get it down to my heart from my head.

i dare you to download her cd.

it is free on noisetrade.com.

it will convict you. 

whoever said that was a bad thing....